Chapter 7.3: 成長 (Growth) [Seichou]

Well i've not been posting for quite sometime because one of the reasons is beacause I wanted to give my friends a surprise. Before that, the city that i'm living in which is called "Tokorozawa" had decorated the streets with beatiful lightings and decorations, below are the piccies~


Tree decoration near the train station


Street decoration

Well and on December 18th, the day that i've been longing for 8 months (lolz). That is the day that I flew back to Malaysia for my Winter holidays. On the 18th itself, as soon as I reached, we had a family gathering and dinner here are the piccies


Poh poh looks funky with the sunglasses (lolz)


Trevor baked for me a welcome back cake!


And on that same day, we celebrated Uncle Sang Kwi's belated birthday as well (lolz) and if i'm not mistaken this cake is also baked by Trevor

Oh yeah I forgot to mention that Arisa joined us for that dinner as well. As to who Arisa is, she is a Japanese that i've met here in Tokorozawa. She went to Malaysia somewhere back in October 2008 to do her internship in Sheraton Subang. Before she went to Malaysia, I promised her that I will take her out when I come back. Which I did (lolz). Yeah and one more thing, i've got nothing towards her, alot of people misunderstood this especially my Malaysian friends (lolz). She has a boyfriend back in Canada, and we're nothing but friends.

Later on that night, I went out to give my gang a surprise, as me and Hong Chun already had been planning this out for months. And I really want to apologize to him as he had to make a big lie just to gather them out without noticing that I am back. Exactly 1 week before I came back, he told the gang that he had a big announcement to make and he wants everyone to gather on the day I came back which they don't know, and they thought that something was wrong as he was very serious. He lied to them saying that he is getting married and well most of them had a little doubt of that as Hong Chun is well known in our gang as the "The King of Bullshits" (lolz). BUT, there was ONE person who believed him all the way through, as to why, at first that ONE person had a little doubt of it until, I played mind games with them as well, faking that I believe that this time Hong Chun is seriously getting married and that ONE person was the ONE who get all excited and he told me "Daryl, i've NEVER seen Hong Chun this serious in my life". Well it proved that Hong Chun is doing great at acting as well (lolz). And that ONE person is Kae Shiuh (lolz). When I surprised them on that night by just walking and sitting down on the table that they're sitting at Misai's place, they were like "OMG! What are you doing here!?" and "When did you come back!!??". It was really fun to see their surprised faces.

Aite back to the update, I actually invited my cousins to come for dinner on Sunday, but my mum invited them for dinner on the day I arrived from Japan. So we went according to plan, and then continue with the dinner that I planned on Sunday, well of course my treat (=D) here are the piccies~


Grandma and Ah Yee Irene, behind are the rest of my cousins (lolz)


Kor kor Lionel, Ee Chong, and Tua Yee Doreen (oh and the waitress~ =p)


Mum and Dad


From left: Ai Yee Irene, Wah Wah, Mum and Dad

The bill came up to RM1005, to be honest I was shocked (lolz). But it was still within my budget as I had RM2000 from all the work I collected. I actually wanted to use that cash to buy myself an XBOX360 but, well, at that time, as long as everybody is happy, then so am I.

Well I went back to my old night lifestyle, which is going out to SS2 and this is a view that I miss in Japan, the "Pasar malam" (Night market)



Next is celebrating Colin a.k.a "Mamat"'s Birthday (lolz) on the 23rd of December. Well as usual, both Trevor and Trisha are ALWAYS broke and I forked out cash for them again (~.~) here is the cake picture~


Well it was his birthday so I resisted the temptation of putting "Happy Birthday Mamat" (lolz) as he will definitely get angry

Next is Jia Hong's barbeque party at Pak Sun's house. Well if you guys are wondering how Arisa looks like, well i've got piccies of her for this occasion as I invited her to come along.


Arisa is sitting beside me, the girl in purple

Then on that night itself we went up to Genting, I was thinking whether I should go up there at first, but then Arisa said she wanted to go, so I haveta go, as I promised her that I will bring her to wherever she wanted if I am able to. So here are the piccies taken at Genting Highlands~


Some random view nearby the parking lot


Nearby the Rollercoaster


Jiann Yet


Me and Jiann Yet (realize that we switched clothes? lolz)


Me and Yeong Shan


Me and Chow Yang


Me and the gang


Me and Arisa

It was one of my most memorable times in Malaysia for 2008 as I was able to get into the casino, well along with Arisa as it was her first time as well, but she is already old enough to get in. We met Hong Chun and Terry in there and we played roulette, lost RM10 (lolz)

Then on the Christmas Day, which is on the 25th of December, Tua Yee Doreen "booked" me for a dinner (lolz). Its been quite sometime since I last had dinner at her place (2~3 years?). Well here is the picture of the food that was prepared for that dinner~


Yummy!

Then on the next day which is the 26th, I went to surprise my "Sie fu" Hui Ying, but unfortunately she found out while i'm on my way there as, Carmen was driving, so Hui Ying saw my sms on her phone (lolz). Well i've planned this with Carmen for quite sometime as well. More piccies~


From left: "Sie fu" Hui Ying and Carmen


Me and Carmen


Me and "Sie fu" Hui Ying

Then the next day, which is on the 27th, is the main reason as to why I actually came back, Sabrina's wedding. It was a surprise as well, but unfortunately it didn't go so well as to why, we weren't being entertained by anyone(we as in me, Trevor and Trisha), but congratulations Sabrina!


Trevor gazing


"Fatty" Trisha


Me and "Fatty" Trisha


Sabrina and her groom

Then on that very same day, I was forced to go down to Melacca by my dad to go for another wedding. Which was Brendan, my mum's Melacca's house neighbour's son. Well the wedding was better than Sabrina's as they got people to entertain us (lolz). Piccies~


Brendan and his bride



Then next is having dinner with my other cousins from my dad side, well its because they can't make it on that sunday, we had another dinner session with them, and of course, I paid. We had Bak Kut Teh, oh and its my first time meeting my niece, Leonie.


Bak Kut Teh!


Leonie

Then the next few days, Leonard's mum ask me out for dinner and we had Fish Head Curry! Well I didn't take any pictures while eating but after that I took pictures with Leonie and I took a picture with a rare sight of my dad (lolz).


Dad and Leonie


"Watch where you are touching!" - Leonie (lolz)


This time with mum

Then on the 31st of December, I had dinner with at Kau Fu Sang Kwi's house. And this is the time that I got really cranky as some of my friends that I wanted to spend New Year with was busy. So I ended up not going anywhere to celebrate New Year's Day especially Phui Thong, if you really call me your best friend, you could at least cancel your clubbing new year party and join us as I might not be here next year or the year after that. But I want to thank Jia Hong, Kae Shiuh and Hong Chun for trying to get me out but I didn't in the end. I slept awhile until 2am, when Swee Loong messaged me to go out for snooker, its been awhile since I last played snooker and had fun playing with Swee Loong. Then we went back at around 4am.

Even when I was sent to the airport I am very dissapointed with the gang, as not even 1 of them even made the initiative to SMS or call me before I board the plane. The only person who messaged me was "Sie fu" Hui Ying.

That closes up my 2 weeks of holiday in Malaysia.

Biggest dissapointment: Phui Thong, as far as you have responsibilities to your family sometimes you're being VERY unreasonable, and made me believe that he would be the "best friend" that I thought he'd be but unfortunately no, it didn't turn out that way.

Expected dissapointment: Guan Shern, i've heard about him changing alot, and now he spends more time with his new so-called "friends". I just want to be clear that I really used to think of him as a friend, but now, not even 1 bit, as his attitude now REALLY disgust me. If you're reading this Guan Shern, I want you to think, who are your real friends, who spent more time with you, who spent their high school lives with you?. Its definitely not your new friend, you know it yourself.

Faces that I see often back in Malaysia: Hong Chun, Swee Loong, Kae Shiuh, Jia Hong and Terry; I really want to thank you guys so much for spending your time with me for the short 2 weeks. I really am happy and glad that you guys took leave from work and time for me. Jia Hong, for helping me out when I had transportation problems. And most of all Swee Loong I really am grateful and thankful as I see him almost everyday ever since I came back until the day I flew back to Japan he spend most of his time to hang out with me.

Aite now to the life in Japan~

As soon as I came back to Japan I called Chisako, Fukuda-san and the rest of my Japanese contacts and Fukuda-san invited me for dinner the next day, which made me very glad. Fukuda-san and his wife has no children, and I guess they must've been lonely on New Year's Day as they don't have any kids to spend time with. I met Fukuda-san at the church and I really am glad that I went to that church even though i'm not a christian. So the next day, we (me and the missionaries and Kanari-kun) were supposed to go to his house but then he told us that his wife is not feeling well, so he brought us near my place and we ate Shabu-Shabu! Its my first time eating Shabu-shabu. As to what is Shabu-shabu, i'll let the picture do the talking~


From left: Fukuda-san and Kanari-kun


This time with me inside









And Fukuda-san payed for that delicious dinner, I really want to thank him alot as he is the only church member to invite me to dinner most of the time.

When school started back, I came across trees that looks like this



Well you can't blame me for taking that picture as its my first time seeing a tree like this and sides, its my first winter! (lolz).

And lastly, after watching "Hana Zakari no Kimitachi e" (a Japanese Drama) I got a new idea on how to style my hair, also remembering the tips that my hairdresser once told me. And the result~~~!!!





Nice eh? I even surprised myself, I didn't spend a single yen on doing this nor using a wax, and its my current hairstyle now.

Next is I went all the way to the opposite side of the Tokyo just to meet with Campos, the guy who I really thank alot because he is flying back to Brazil on February. Campos is a missionary for a church that is called "The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints". Thanks to him I get to meet with alot of great people in the church also thanks to that I didn't feel THAT lonely anymore. Well he is with another companion at Koutzunomori near Narita city, we played basketball, table tennis and then we ate at a "Tabehoudai" (all you can eat) restaurant. Here are the piccies


From left: Campos and Pimentel


Me and Pimentel


Me and Campos

The next day, I hold a party for Na-chan and 2 other newcomers into our guesthouse. Well I totally forgot to take pictures of Na-chan and the 2 newcomers, but I took a picture of Erofy (lolz) and me!


Erofy playing the guitar, he is good at performing!


Me!

Finally as to why I chosed "Growth" as this chapter's title, is because, when I finally came back home, I realize that i've changed alot, i've grown alot during that 8 months. As to what kind of growth, I can't explain it well, but I know that i've grown alot.

Well sorry for the long late post. But till then sayounara~!

P.S: To those wondering about the girl i'm going for, her name is Matsuri, 19 years old. How I met her? Working together in McDonalds, but unfortunately for me, she already has a boyfriend. I did ask her out for a date, thats when she told me that she has a boyfriend. And being myself, I don't like to steal other people's girlfriend and therefore i'm no longer persuing her. Sides, there are always chances ahead =).

P.P.S: The new bgm I put into this site, I love it, its been playing on my head for a few days now!

"Mae susumou!" - Daryl a.k.a Wiegraf, Vash and Urameshi Kiddo

Chapter 7.2: 一生の宝 (Lifelong treasures) [Isshou no Takara]

Well i've not been posting lately due to my laziness (lolz sorry) and had been quite busy with my part-time job and study (not really about study =p). Well i'll start off with my birthday. Well 1 month before my birthday, my family sent me a birthday card which was kinda plain, but hey, its the thought that counts right? Well as for this posts, I am proud to say that I have people who I can call FRIENDS. I was kinda touched for what they did for me for my birthday. They made a fool outta themselves in McDonalds, here is the vid:



Well i'm not sure about you guys, but to me I was really touched till my tears came out watching this vid. I really want to thank Kae Shiuh, Dan, Hong Chun, Chow Yang, Jia Hong, Guan Shern, Jiann Yet and Pak Sun. It really comforted me and made me know that I always have a home to come back to. Well to me, my only priority was only my family, but now, both family and friends, obviously family first though (lolz).

Then on my birthday eve, Kan-chan organized a birthday party dinner for me. I want to thank her for organizing that party as in Japan, 20 year old birthday, is the most important year. Well in Malaysia we call it the "Key Year". As at the age of 20, they're allowed to drink and do whatever they want. Whilst in Malaysia the "Key Year" is 21 years old. So beforehand, Kan-chan already told me to decide what i'd wanna eat so I told her that I wanted to eat pizza. So then we went to a restaurant whereby they had an "All you can eat pizza and pasta" for about 2000yen per person? (Which is around RM60). Well i'm not so sure for the price as they paid for me. The people who came are Kan-chan, Fujin-chan, Doa-chan, Sensei and Suke-chan. Here is the photo of them:



From left: Suke-chan, me, Sensei (Nagai-Yuuko), Doa-chan, Kan-chan and Fujin-chan

Well I doubt you guys can hardly see Kan-chan's picture so heres a picture taken from her birthday:



From left: Jhoanna-chan, Fujin-chan, Kan-chan, Tama-chan and Eiko-san

As for present, Kan-chan and Fujin-chan bought for me a jacket, which was quite good. Well thanks to Suke-chan's "great idea" I ended up like this:



Yeap, thats me in my new "jacket" (lolz).

Aite next is my part-time job. I'm hired in McDonalds (lolz) being paid 800yen per hour (which is roughly about RM24 per hour). I've been working lately to get the things i've wanted, and the most recent things that i've bought for myself is the Nintendo DS. Also heres my uniform picture along with my name tag (lolz):



Uniform


McPork!

Well if you guys are wondering what my name tag states, it is "Dariru Rimu Jia Sen" pronounced that way as well (though it doesn't seems to sound right to me lolz). And well working here in japan is tough. As to why, they're tooo strict and you must always be on the move, no time to even catch a breath unlike in Malaysia whereby everything is done according to one's pace (not all though but most of the jobs). But oh well, thanks to that, i've got to make new friends. And most of the highschoolers from the age 15~18 are currently working there which is just what I wanted as most of my friends are older people which are late 20s and 30s.

Also, Aunt Mei from Australia came down to Japan, she, Uncle Ron, Aunty Cathy and Aunty Margaret. So I brought them to Yokohama, which is famous for Chinatown (where they treated me chinese all you can eat buffet xD). I brought them to the "San kei en" as well (well I can't translate this, but its a big garden with alot of old buildings, basically its a town where all the rich people used to live in the late 1800s). Here are some pictures that I took with them:



Me and Aunty Cathy



From left: Aunty Margaret, Aunt Mei and Uncle Ron
Both are taken in the train though (lolz)

Well next is Festivals! When it comes to festivals, i'd always hyped in my own way (as to why I say my own way, I don't really look hyped but i'm actually hyped lolz). Firstly, is Hoshino Koukou Jyousei Gakko (litterally means Hoshino All-girls High School =D). Sensei teaches in this school so she invited us (me and Taka-chan) to go to her school's cultural festival! Here are some piccies~:



Sensei



Sadly they're plenty of Middle school girls rather than High school girls =( (=P)



Sensei's in charge of the Marching Band of this school, and it happens that the Marching Band in this school is quite famous, so basically it was the school cultural festival's main event.

Next is the party we had at home, along with my housemates! But, somehow its like a nightmare to me, as to why, I just turned 20 and they're pushing me to drink, ALOT (lolz). Here are some pictures~



From left: Taka-chan and Sensei
Umph actually Taka-chan is a Korean, Sensei and Suke-chan said that he had the "Takashi look" so they decided to call him Taka-chan, real name (Park In Sang)



From left: Yoshikawa-san and Toni (nickname, real name is Hide something, which I forgot xD but he is a japanese alrite)



From left: Na-chan and the new person who just shift in, Kaori-san



Doa-chan (also a korean)



Last but not least, Mini-chan a.k.a Nuna (which means big sister in korean, as she is a korean)

Well in the end 3 person got drunk and knocked out which is Toni (KOed at the dining table which made me and Taka-chan had to drag him to his bed), Kaori-san (KOed and gave me a shocked as she drop right in front of my room) and Yoshikawa-san (KOed in the toilet lolz).

Next is TGS 2008! For all those gamers, they'd definitely know or at least heard of it, Tokyo Game Show 2008! Well i'll let the pictures do the talking~



My favourite company!



Dissidia Final Fantasy Limited Edition items



A close lookup at the Limited Edition PSP version for Dissidia Final Fantasy



Picture of FF: Dissidia's characters



Biohazard: Degeneration CG Movie

Well instead of coming here taking pictures of games, I ended up taking more pictures of chicks instead (hey, i'm a guy alright! lolz)









And some cosplayers that are some, OUTRAGEOUS and some that are cool







And finally time to leave =(. Before I left, here is the banner that I took~



Finally are the city festivals, one which is in Tokorozawa (the place i'm currently living in) and Hon-Kawagoe's festival (which was today)



Tokorozawa's festival (i've only got this picture)

Below are all Hon-kawagoe's city festival


Huge crowd @.@



Now THIS is a festival that I had in mind, stalls all over the city just like it is in the anime



This was delicious, Chicken Steak =D



Yeap... I LOVE festivals xD



Fox dancing...?



Haunted Mansion (600yen per person which is about rm18 per entry, OUCH! Didn't go in though =P)

Aite thats about it for this update, it is updated till today =). Thanks for your support and till then, laterz~!

Arigatou na minna - Daryl a.k.a Vash, Wiegraf and Urameshi Kiddo

P.S: Those who want to see more piccies, you can watch it here at http://www.dropshots.com/6Vash9 =)

Latest video!

Whoops I forgot to post my latest YouTube video, enjoy~!

Chapter 7.1: Sabishii wa Tsurai (Loneliness is tough)

Its been quite sometime since I last blogged, I thought nobody would really care until Ah Kit, message me saying "Dude how's life? U didnt update ur blog fer quite some time, lookin forward to updates" which tells me that they ARE people who are actually reading my blog other than my family and close friends. Its good to know that Kit is still reading my blog, despite we chat with each other online. But thanks to him i've got my motivation to blog which I had not have for this past few months. Before blabbering bout my life here in Japan, I want to thank Pei Chuen (PC) and Eric for organizing 2 different farewell parties for me, on the day I left for Japan and on the day before I left for Japan. For PC's side I want to thank Phui, Jia Hong, Kai, Kenny Yap, Mung Kit, Hong Chun, Jiann Yet, Chow Yang, Guan Shern, Yeong Shan and Pak Sun for celebrating my farewell party, although it got interrupted by my dad (AGAIN, as the night before, he interrupted my farewell party with Eric's group). Well here are some pictures





Theres plenty more, but a picture can say a thousand words right? Thinking of them never cease to make me smile. "haihz...with u gone now feel like missing a piece connecting us together.." - Phui said to me. It seems that now our usual group are split into 3~4 groups. I guess me leaving really did made a huge impact on our gang and the other hand, I miss them as well. Next is Eric's group, which is my college friends. The pictures seem to be missing (=/) but I will upload them when I can find it. Eric's group brought me to a place in Cheras where it was nice, as in a nice place for couples (lolz) and well yeah a nice place to think peacefully as its on a hill. So we went to eat steak, at that time, i've not touched steak for like ages and the steak tasted good (lolz) and halfway through, Trevor called to ask me whether I wanted to watch movie. I know he had no bad intentions but because of that, my farewell party got cut off halfway and by the looks of Eric, he looked very dissapointed which I felt really bad. Finally the people who see me off at the airport






Realize the picture that I took with my dad? Before reaching the airport I was telling myself to be strong, leave without tears, but it seems that when it was my turn to hug my dad, emotions tend to burst out. I guess at that time I was not fully prepared for that.

Thats for the whole farewell part, and as for my life now, I had been lost ,confused ,lonely and sad for the past 2 months. Lost as in i've lost my sight and purpose as to the reason why I came here. Confused as i've been easily taken into people's words seriously not being like my usual self. Lonely, as i've got no gang to go out with, people in my class seems to stay away from me except for some few number of people. Sad as in not being able to see my loved ones. Currently i'm having my summer break which is about to end this sunday. The day before yesterday, I was really lost, confused, lonely and sad until I intended to stop my studies here halfway. After chatting with my dad on that day about how I felt, my eyes opened again. I got back most of my motivation which I had lost a few months back, becoming more positive, I meant becoming more like the Daryl everyone knew back in Malaysia. This is my first time feeling very lost, I guess i'm still very weak mentally. I'd also want to thank Campos and Kindt, I really am glad that i've met them. Campos and Kindt are missionaries from a church in Kotesashi, Campos came from Brazil and Kindt came from Arizona, Phoenix, US. By knowing them i've met alot of nice people in the church. They gave me a bicycle, invited me for dinner, provide me transportation and helped me alot in many ways. Also i've been teaching English in this church as a volunteer for 2 months+ teaching conversational English. I've not taken any pictures of the people I teach but I will post it up here once I do. Oh and as for the girl that I posted in my earlier post, i've asked her out in the middle of May, she told me OK once her EJU exam is over which is on somewhere in June. But then after that exam over, she extended it to November. At first I said OK but then after getting to know her better, I realize that she isn't suitable for me, as from how I see, she doesn't seem to be the serious type and I somehow know that if I were to go out with her, I will feel disappointed. As to why I say so, 90% of the sms I send to her, it will not be replied, even though its free. Knowing myself, i'm a sensitive person, not replying for a day or so its alright as long as it is replied, but not replying at all, it shows that she don't have any interest. So after a week, I cancelled the date without telling her the reason. Actually its more like she ignored me rather than me not wanting to explain as i've tried to approached her many times and she ignores me. Aite, gotta go to bed already, its 4AM here in Japan and i've planned to go to Chinatown tommorow at 10am so gotta go to bed. Till then sayounara~!

"Ore, motto tsuyoku naritai... dou sureba ii?" - Daryl (a.k.a) Wiegraf, Vash and Urameshi Kiddo

Chapter 7: Nihon no seikatsu (Life in Japan)

Today marks 1 month of me being here in Japan. I'm currently living in Tokorozawa, which is in the Saitama prefecture of Japan. My school is basically 1 hour away from here, calculating both the train and walking distance together. I found out that my school is very near to "Toudai" which is Tokyo University, the University that I intended to enter. Well... as for classes, i'm currently in D7 and my class is filled with different nationalities. An American chinese named Christopher Allan Loo, 2 Indonesians named Hansen and Sandy, 4 Koreans, 1 Hongky girl, 1 China girl and the other 9 are malaysians. The smartest guy in our class would be Hansen, and even though dad told me that I don't have to be the best in the class, as long as I pass it would make him happy, i'm not satisfied with just that. Hansen would be my goal in studies. As for now, my only entertainment is basketball, as I don't wanna spend my parent's money for my own entertainment. I've met a few nice/great people in my house which are very helpful. Firstly it'd be Yoshida Naoto-san, the first day I came to this guesthouse (Farman Tokorozawa), he helped me alot regarding the daily life here in Japan and also for the Alien registration card. He also lived in Seattle during high school for 4 years, and because of that, he can speak quite fluent english. Next is Nagai Yuko-san, she is a teacher teaching english in an all-girls high school in Kowagoe, she is a nice and helpful person as well, especially when translating from japanese to english when Naoto-san is not there, she would be the one who would be helping me, also, she loves drinking (lolz). Next is Kim Do A-chan, Do A-chan came from Korea but she doesn't look like one, as she could speak fluent japanese (unlike me) both she and sensei helped me to cook pongteh, and it was fun. Next is Kanno Yukie-san, she treats me like her younger brother and like a mother (lolz), she is understanding and a very kind person, she is doing web designing and comes back late (lolz). Next is Sai Ei Ko-san, basically she is from China, but had been staying here in Japan for 7 years now, me and Naoto-san agreed that she is lucky as her boyfriend casually comes over to this guesthouse all the way from Chiba (the prefecture that is directly opposite of Saitama prefecture), well she is funny and can be serious at times. Next is Fujin-san, hardly know her, other than she draws manga for an all-girls manga magazine. Next is Jhoanna Varenty-san, I hardly know her as well, but she is a nice person. And i've got to know Lee Su Ah-san yesterday, she is a Korean, but can speak Japanese and English as well. She gave both me and Naoto-san a shock yesterday when she spoke english, well not just normal english, she spoke with a British's accent. She told us that her accent is a little bit of a mix of both British and Canadian accent. Oh yeah I forgot to mention that everyone (except me) in this guesthouse can cook well (lolz). Also one more thing I forgot to mention, as Lionel asked me this question "So.... Did any chick confessed to you and said something like they don't want you to leave Malaysia?". Well the answer is no (lolz). Also i've made a video of myself in YouTube which I will post at the end of this post. Because of that video being passed around in my school, I am both famous and infamous. Famous because I had the courage of doing it, and infamous as they're buncha idiots who'd say that i'm not a Malaysian as I sing like a Japanese and tells me to f**k off and etc. As for why I did that video, its because i've always wanted to do things but didn't had the courage, but this time, ever since i've come to Japan, i've changed. Also the fact that I could only do this kind of things while i'm still young. Its also, because I love this song very much, it relates to my previous life. Also, heres an advice to Jiann Yet, "Move forward, even if you're loyal to her, its useless if she don't see you as the way you see her, go find someone else, someone who would appreciate you, not someone who don't, because at the end of the day when you guys get older, she will somehow realize your feelings, by then its already to late. Let it be a regret that she'll never forget". I've been through that crap longer than you did, and now that i've moved on, i'm feeling much more better. Aite gotta go and have my breakfast now~ till then sayounara

P.s: I've already set my eyes on a chick in my class, well if everything goes right, who knows what will happen? =p

"Mou hitori bocchi wa iyada!" - Daryl (a.k.a) Wiegraf, Vash and Urameshi Kiddo

Chapter 6.5: Saiyaku kimochi (The worst feeling ever)

I've decided to finally update my blog since i've got my mood now, of all times to update. As i'm typing now, i'm with my usual gang, which are Hong Chun, Dan, Jiann Yet and Terry out here having our "yumcha" session at Station 1 Kuchai Lama (lolz). I'll start off with my Singapore trip on January. As soon as i've had my confirmation letter to study in Japan, I soon tried to fulfill all promises i've made with people. So far i've only failed to fulfill 1 promise, which I made with Angel a few years back. The promise was to meet each other, well, Angel is a Singaporean girl which I had met online. Returning back to the topic, it concluded that I was not able to meet her as she had a busy week and it seems I went on the wrong week. But in return, after not going to Singapore for years, I went along with Guan Shern, who never went to Singapore before. Stayed with Uncle Robin, and had the rough idea of how Singaporeans are. The interesting part of this trip was not how interesting Singapore is, but it was how Jasmine matured. Knowing Jasmine as she was young, she'll not talk to me as she doesn't speak good english, but during my stay there, she was quite talkative. She talked to me as if the barriers before never happened, which is a good thing, communicating with her is no longer a problem as i'd thought as it was before. The conclusion is that she turned out to be a fine young lady now. Also i've realized how Singapore's train system and Japan's train system are similar. They go almost everywhere in Singapore, also it shows how small Singapore is. The living standard there as well is quite equivalent as the pay there rather than the living standard here in Malaysia. Next would be that my grandma from my dad's side passed away. Normally during Chinese New Years, i'd definitely be the winner in any gambling game I played (not to brag but its the truth, even my cousins are afraid to gamble with me) but somehow this year I lost alot, and definitely its a bad sign. I felt something was wrong and my intuition was right, I got a call from Trish and Trev saying that grandma was hospitalized. The conclusion was that she did not make it and it was a shock for all of us as we did not expect Ah Ma to go off this early as amongst both our grandmas, she was the healthiest. Throughout the whole funeral, I can't seem to cry, Leonard (my cousin) on the other hand, questioned my love towards Ah Ma. He asked me a questions which was "Daryl.... You don't care about Ah Ma at all r?", at that time, he must've thought that I am the biggest jerk and the most useless grandson as I did not cry during the whole funeral session. But then I replied, "Its not that I don't care... Its just that I just can't cry even if I wanted to, also i'm sure Ah Ma would not want me to cry". I talked about this to both my dad and Aunt May, my dad said "Then he must be thinking that i'm a bigger ass than you are as I did not cry myself" whilst Aunt May said "Different people grieve differently", which I agreed on. Leonard told me that Ah Ma talked alot of good things about me in front of both he and Leon (Leonard's brother). Ah Ma left us with her belongings which were her rings, necklace and etc, which I did not really care much. What I wanted to know is what Ah Ma talked about me and I only know what Leonard told me, which was "Ah Ma said that you've matured alot" and also he told me that Ah Ma always compared them and me saying that i'm independent and etc which made me happy. Between all her grandchildrens, Leonard, Leon, and Cristabel (cousin sister) were the closest to Ah Ma. 2 weeks after her funeral, i've not went out with my friends. Reason? Simple, I wanted to spend more time with my family before I leave. 2 more weeks left, before I leave Malaysia and i'm already having confused feelings. In a way, i'm happy that i'll be pursuing what I wanted to pursue all my life, on the other hand, it is sad that i'll be leaving everyone I love here. Had been "room-hunting" online for quite sometime and I have problems of finding one, but I think I will somehow get one soon (I hope). This would most likely be my last post here in Malaysia, therefore I would want to thank a few people who've supported this "oobaka" (big idiot) in his life. Firstly, Li Yen, thank you for making me realize what i've wanted to do since I was kid. Things that I had long lost forgotten are remembered thanks to you and you really did play a big role in my life and are one of the most important people in my life, thank you. Next would be dad, I know you've been reading my blog lately and I want to thank you for supporting me for the whole time teaching me life's ups and downs, even though I DID took a wrong path before, now that you've regained back my trust, I WILL NOT FAIL your expectations and your "rules" are a really helpful guidelines in my life, which are "Do NOT join any gangsters", "Do NOT take drugs" and "Do NOT lie" (well although I still lie lolz) thank you. Next is mum, for always caring about me, cancelled her trip to Spain all because of my selfishness (I really still am feeling bad) just to study in Japan and also financing me when I needed the cash (lolz) thank you. Next would be Lionel, thank you for acknowledging me not only as a cousin, a friend and an adult. Last time you'd always asked me this question "You got your parent's permission to go out?" which somehow insulted me (lolz). Next is Trevor, thank you for teaching me what courage is, during the tournament, in our group you were the only one who volunteered to step up against that big guy. Even though you've lost, but your courage is well acknowledged by me also thank you for showing me what a useless brother I am (lolz). Next is Trisha, thank you for being there when I need someone to talk to I really appreciate having you to comfort me in times of need. But that does not make you smarter than I am (=p). Next is Dan, thank you for being one of my best friend even though you HAD been an ass (actually still is lolz) to me, you understood me best amongst the gang. Finally Rae, for posting about me in her blog! (lolz). To the rest, its not like you're not important, its just that this are the people that played a big role in my life and they're too many people to type down in this post therefore I decided on only major ones. Thanks for your support for this blog for 4 years. Till then, await Chapter 7 which will be my new life in Tokyo, Japan!

"Ima nara shindemo iinda"- Daryl a.k.a Vash, Wiegraf and Urameshi Kiddo

Chapter 6.4: Sekai Ichiban Suteki na koto (The world's most wonderful thing)

Lately I had been hooked onto Aqua Timez's "Sen No Yoru wo Koete" which literally translates as "Overcoming 1000 nights". Well the reason to it is because this song actually syncs to my life, and the reason I think that most people like different kinds of songs is because some of it relates to their lifes and I DO think that telling someone that you love him/her is the most wonderful thing in the world, also the hardest thing to tell someone (well for me). Life lately had been abit more hectic than it was, there aren't any surveys lately and i'm running outta cash. Currently i'm working for P&G doing survey for them. Basically all I do is to check mini markets, convenience stores, chinese herbal shops and etc if they sell any shampoos or detergens. Overall, I think that this job is alright but quite boring and tiring, as this job is a solo job and i'm moving around all the time. The pay is quite alright but I think they need to increase on the petrol coverage, well i'm getting paid RM10 per hour, RM30 petrol coverage, tolls and parking fees are all covered. I didn't know that a prestigious company such as P&G is very stingy when it comes to pay, guess I can't have all my hopes so high. Currently I am very nervous thinking about going to study over in Japan. To be honest, I would be happy if I am confirmed going, but I had not stayed in a foreign place for more than 30 days, and whats more, alone. The confirmation letter will arrive in this coming January, hopefully. I don't get some people, they think that dreams are like some sort of an objective that can be easily achieved. To me, a dream is like a vision, something that takes Time+Effort+Determination to achieve and its a long term vision, something that can't be achieved by hours,days or months but years. Speaking of which, people don't seem to understand of the meaning love at all, they seem to say it easily. I know some people who just meet a person and he says he love her, or more like first at love sight. But unfortunately in reality, I don't think its that simple, anyone can just say "I love you" and yet don't meant it. I guess it annoys me when someone simply uses that word and yet don't meant it. Oh, and about the previous post, it seems that i'm wrong about Natasha, we basically went for a Hari Raya open house, not a Deepavali open house. It seems that Sabrina is still with her fiance, which is a huge relief for me. But thanks to Natasha, I was able to indirectly ask Sabrina whether she is still engaged or not. After that day, Sabrina seemed to sms me on odd hours like 2am in the morning (lolz). But some of the topics we chat about are quite interesting, and i'm glad that we're back contacting each other. I guess thats about it for this chapter, below is the translation for Aqua Timez's "Sen No Yoru wo Koete", I'm sure you'll like the song as well. Till then, sayounara~!

"Sekai ichiban suteki na koto... ka?" - Daryl (a.k.a) Vash, Wiegraf, Urameshi Kiddo

“Sen No Yoru wo Koete” (english Translation) - by Aqua Timez

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
Telling “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or don't?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because the only the fact of me loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

Overcoming one thousand nights,
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone
On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, on repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
I kept on loving you without getting hurt

Overcoming one thousand nights, I am going to meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if my feelings aren't returned,
Telling “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world

Chapter 6.3: Mou kimetanda! (Its decided!)

1 month after coming back from my Japan trip, I felt more stressful than ever. Trevor's been a friggin pain in the arse, studies are cramming and I contacted Sabrina back. Starting off with Trevor, he recently drove the Kancil illegally all the way to PJ and caused an accident. And THANKS to that, my dad started to scold me saying "You see? Its because you don't drive him out, this is what he does" blaming everything onto me. When I was at his age, whenever I were to go out with friends, I would take the public transport, so that I wouldn't trouble my parents. That's not the end of it, even after the accident, he sneaked out taking my dad's car out. Today, he calls my mum and bugged her to drive him out, so that he can meet with his friends. I drove all the way from KLIA to USJ to meet my sick grandma after sending my dad to the airport. Then because of his call, I am FORCED to go back home for his selfish request. So then I came back and yelled at him saying "If you're not gonna change your friggin childish attitude, DON'T call me your brother!". It is a fact that in my father's family history, that the younger brother will always be the troublemaker for the elder ones. Even if he has no money to go out by himself, then how the hell does he get the money to spend on ciggarettes? If he did not spend on the ciggarettes, he could already go out by himself and be MUCH MORE independent. I've decided that if it really comes to it, I WILL abandon him even if he IS my brother. I won't do the same mistakes that my dad and grandfather does. My uncle used to pull my dad's leg, causing him troubles and problems. As for me, I won't take this bullshit, even if its my brother. I don't want to end up like my father used to, struggled all because of his brother. Every friggin time i'm being blamed for his mistakes. I'm sick and tired of all this crap. Studies now are also pain in the butt.... especially Ms. Nally's presentation. Its alright having Franny and Siti, but then Amreed as my group member? Amreed is a lazy sikh who causes problems and always thinks that his perception is the right one. He already caused problem for Eric in the previous semester and this semester I am with him for 2 different groups including Mr. David's assignment. It is really stressful to do groupworks with him especially. Well the good thing is that I contacted Sabrina back, and am somehow happy about it. She seems to be doing well and she told me that her engagement failed, as for the reason, I didn't asked why as I think it surely is personal. Its nice to chat with her, but I wouldn't want to get too close with her. Even though I said that I would go for her, but if I were accepted to study in the Institute in Japan, I would be gone for quite sometime that is exactly why. To me, persuing my dreams is much more important than my love life for now. She somehow wants to see me and had been asking me out lately, but most of the time I rejected her offer because of that reason. But today, I will go out with her to one of her friend's open house for Deepavali celebration and she wants me to use 1 car as in just go with her car even though I said I will most probably have to go back early. As for now i'm just hoping she has no crazy thoughts as I would not want to hurt her feelings again. How I wish I AM still in Japan, this kind of problems would not occur to me. I miss Okaa-san's cooking, drinking with Otoo-san, teaching Chisako-san english, playing with Arito-kun and Sota-kun, and teaching Mikiko-san and Yuji-san "Chor Dai Di". But running away won't do any good, haveta accept the reality that i'm in. I'll get to know if i'm accepted in this coming December and if I am accepted, I will definitely change.

"I will not tolerate people who pulls me down" - Daryl (a.k.a) Wiegraf, Urameshi Kiddo and Vash