Chapter 4.3: Shinjitsu wa... (The truth is...)

It's been 3 months since I last updated, well firstly its because I became more lazy (XD) and well its also because I don't wanna reveal my blog to my mum's friend (yeah I HATE her). Because of her, I almost had a misunderstanding with Colin. Ever since she came here, my family had became worst, I had fought with my mum over her and also screwed our family (yeah by telling my mum some sort of lies that made us fight). Shes always at home doing nothing, and shes around 30+, jobless i'm thinking as she does nothing other than using the computer at my house. Theres this one time when she was pissed at me because I tried and corrected her over food, and she told me that "Daryl I wanna make this clear, i'm twice your age and I should get proper treatment from you" well as usual whenever people scolds me when I know i'm right, I won't look at the person, acting as if he/she were talking to him/herself. At that time, I wanted to tell her off but no I didn't do that as it'll hurt my mum too =/. I kept to myself saying "Heck you're over 30+ and all you're doing is leeching my mum's cash, and all you ever did ever since you came back from England is nothing but updating your lame blog which is full of crap, and you want my respect? Better off to where you come from *****!". Well enough of that, back to December (^^"). Genting trip was fun but the theme park was a dissapointment as it was raining season and we couldn't play much of the outdoor theme park but we went to Snow World instead, (^^) which was really fun. Oh yeah not to forget, me, Dan, Hong, Kae, Hong Chun, Jiann Yet, Yeong Shan and Nigel went for the trip. We played blackjack (yeah Hong Chun lost to me around 40 bucks XD) and everyone was having fun with both the cards and the PS2's (yep Hong Chun and me brought our PS2). Overall I think this year is a little bit more fun than last year's trip (^^). Next is Terence's birthday party. Rachel dragged me as she wants to umph... avoid her ex? Well it was alright and Rachel served me some food (which... well made me feel VERY VERY BAD honestly, SORRY RACHEL~~~!). Then later on we played basketball (lolz!) yep... One of the sports which i'm good at (well not exactly VERY good). Theres this one time when I shot the ball (if im not mistaken) when suddenly the ball bounced on the board and hit rachel at her face (XD). I felt even worst (=/) about 20 minutes later while playing basketball, Rachel went back. That leaves me, Terence, Rach's ex and also her ex's sister (wow?). Thats when I started playing serious as there was no girl playing (=P). We played out of 5 and I scored well.... the first four balls (^^) and the last well.... Rach's ex did the job. The rest was nothing much other than goodbyes. Well then lets see.... Me and my family went back to Melacca on the 28th of January for Chinese New Year (excluding that ***** , which was good as if she were to go along, it'll ruin our new year). Well as usual nothing much happened other than this year most probably be the last year we'll celebrate in Melacca as my uncles are planning to sell away the banglow (=/). Well came back on the Friday the following week and on Saturday, well I happen to meet Crystal at IOI mall (yeah unexpectedly) and she was like "Err... Daryl...?" I thought my sister called me as I was going to watch movie with my parents and my grandma. Its really unexpected of her to chat with me as I never talked to her at all until just recently at the cinema. After a short conversation I said "Umph alright, I.... umph got to go, see ya laterz?" she replied "Umph okay..." then I went to my grandma realizing that Crystal was looking at me until her friend came and then left (hey i'm not vain, its true that she WAS looking at me the whole time after we chat). Well my dream of persuing my studies in Japan had shattered as dad says that he has no cash to pay for my education fee there (=/). Then my grandpa gave me a little hope as my grandpa from my fathers side called all the way from Australia and told my dad that he had won some cash from the casino (o.O). He then told my dad that he wants to use that money to pay for furthering my studies to Australia (@.@). My dad being the eldest son means he will be the head of the "Lim" family and for me being his eldest son means I will be taking care of my fathers family tree, which leads to my grandpa, to him, i'm his last hope as his side, none of the guys had ever been into universities other than my grandpa's youngest brother. To my grandfather (well according to my dad) i'm like his youngest son (@.@). I then made up my mind that wherever i'll further my studies at, I won't give a damn, as long as its not Malaysia (although i'm born on the national day but heck I HATE this country because of some problems). But its all not decided yet... so it'll be on hold till this coming march (=/). Recently Sabrina had invited me to go out for our primary school gathering... but I didn't go... well its because i'm afraid to see her... I guess... Well the main reason why I post this post is because I want Kazuki-chan to know that, its not that I have anything against Li Yen... Its just that after sending her the sms, I don't know why... but I somehow feel embarrased seeing her? Or even talk to her? Don't really know how to explain, but the truth is that she is still a friend to me. Although we rarely contact each other, all i'm hoping is that she'd be happy wherever she is. And actually thanks for telling me how she is and where she is Kazuki-chan (although that night at Terence's birthday I was kinda cocky when you brought her name up =P). I'm actually glad that shes doing fine. Aite, I think that i'll stop here, and hopefully will continue updating my blog as often as I could, till then sayonara~!

"I guess persuing my dreams is harder than expected... but I won't just give up yet!" - Daryl (a.k.a) Wiegraf, Urameshi and Vash