Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Chapter 3.7: Love... something to die for?

Before anything that had happened between me and dan, my sis tried to kill herself... It started like any normal saturdays, I head to work and came back at night, on that night itself, after celebrating Bi Yen's birthday, she had a fight with Colin. It seemed normal but this time she really did attempt suicide, me, Kelvin, Colin and my dad were worried that she'd do something dumb. We went to look for her at 11pm that night until 1am, then I gave up looking for her and went to sleep. Then at 3am that same night my dad wake me up saying that they found her and now she's at the park near my house. At that time, it was raining heavily at that time, so I woke up and took an umbrella and walked to the park. When I reached there, I saw Colin, Melvin and her. I told both Colin and Melvin to go back and i'll take things over from here. They left me and her alone sitting on the swing at the park, I started off saying "Why Trisha?? Why??", she kept quiet while swinging the swing... my emotions came to me and I started asking her in tears (what a wuss ~.~). Before that, when my father told me that they had found her, she had attempted to jump over the bridge nearby my house and luckily one passerby alerted the police and the police brought her to the station. After convincing her to talk after 30 minutes, she then started to beg me to go back as she said that she don't want me to see her kill herself (~.~ I could've sworn that I would've slapped her at that time). I told her no and she kept on insisting until she was kneeling down begging me to leave her alone. I think i'll keep the rest of that problem and conclude that she finally got back her sanity and now she's much more happier and we're closer. Now time to make things CRYSTAL CLEAR about me and Dan, i'm NOT hating or fighting him over Jess, but yes, I DO admit that I was wrong to be mad at him in the first place, it's because he friggin brought up our friendship into the problem, saying that best friends don't call them names and blablabla. How about Hong and Kae Shiuh? Have they ever complaint about us calling them dog or chicken? Have they even complaint once? NO!! The other reason why i'm angry at him is also because I DID gave him a chance to explain, but no, he didn't want to. And there he go, teaching me that best friends share this and that and blablabla, I ain't using my blog to make people support me or something like that... I'm not that LOW to bullshit to people and at the same time, I realised that he's being what he is now because of her. Listening to her every single words, but somehow i'm glad that i'm not in his shoes now. Andrew (school friend) was looking for Dan for the past few days, he was going to warn Dan to tell Jess to watch out, because if he sees her, she's dead, thats the message he told me to tell Dan (I guess thats the reason why he's always absent in school nowadays), but I told him that i'm no longer his friend. We chat a little about the rumours being spread in the school about me fighting with Dan over her. He then finally understood what was really going on and he tell me to think saying "How'd it feel knowing your girlfriend has about 30+ ex-boyfriends?" I was stunned but at the same time, relieved. I believe the saying "What goes round, comes round". But if he thinks that I don't appreciate our friendship he's wrong, I do appreciate it, really I do, because he was more like a brother to me rather than a friend. I won't forget when I was very sick, he took care of me while my parents was away in Europe when I overnight at his house for 3 days straight. There're more but this is the one that I really did appreciate most. Yep you guys might think that this is nothing but it does mean something to me. Just to remind, IT HAS NEVER BEEN A FIGHT OVER A GIRL. I guess this is it~

Andy - "Remember Daryl, that because of your friends, you are what you are now..."
Daryl - "I know... But to me, friends comes and goes..."