Chapter 2.4: The coward

I just came back from my taekwon-do tourney, this time without a gold medal (heck we fought against people older than us by 7~10 years) but we tried our best. I've always been condemnming my brother, but when it comes into certain things, we always support each other. Earlier yesterday, our team was close to the finals but before that, we haveta face a very tough team (yea they're from Kedah). First round Tek Liong (a black belt) helped us to spar but still we lost, then the second one my brother went to fight against the same belt as his yet he drew, then for the third one I was sparring (yea with their weakling) I won, then the last round... the most fearsome opponent, his size was huge and he's kinda tall, all 4 of us were scared of him except for that one person. And that one person was my brother himself, he then sparred with courage that 4 of us don't have, but he lost. Even though we lost, it made me realize one important thing, yea that is that i've been a coward... always fought the weak ones unlike my brother, he has the courage that I don't. Then earlier today, he sparred couragely but we still lost, but he was injured. His opponent (20+ years old) kicked his balls, yea his balls too hard that his muscles all cramped and he couldn't move at all. We sent him to the hospital due to the lack of medical officers, from that moment on, I was afraid... afraid to lose a brother that i've been raised with. He was grieving in pain yet I couldn't do a thing for him... i felt so darn useless, so useless that i felt like its better if i'm not his brother... Then after half an hour in the hospital, he was back to normal, just that he needs rest and all, that really made me relief. From here on, i'm gonna be serious about the things i do, i've made up my mind on my ambitions that is to be either a doctor, game director or a movie director (I chose doctor so that i could help others, and also so that I wouldn't feel useless in those type of situations), instead of earning $$$ working, i've made up my mind on going for tuitions for all my subjects, I wanna keep my target of becoming the first guy in the whole family to be a University graduate, improve my japanese language, and to at least... meet Angel ^^. I'm targetting straight A's for my upcoming exam which is next year (although i've NEVER get more than 1A in an exam). Now that i've got targets, it will keep me going, and also not to be a COWARD that i'm already am on every situations, I wanna have that courage that my brother has and yea even though i condemn him with my words... the truth is I love him ^^, its just that the ego thats stopping it all. Working is out of my mind temporary, now i'm concentrating on both my taekwon-do and my studies, not to forget, i'm waiting for Angel to get her phone, so that i'd be able to contact her via sms/phone rather than online which is very hard. Till then, wait for da next chapter!

"Courage is not shown everytime, it'll somehow come to you when the situation is right, then only will the individual understands the true meaning of COURAGE" - Daryl

Chapter 2.3: People I know

I quit my job on the very first day. Not because I don't like it, it's because of the shop supervisor, first she asked her head chef to interview me. Then after all those talks, he agreed and he told me that I can start off working the next day 10.30, then the next day when I went there, the head chef told me that the supervisor needs workers only for saturday and sunday, not on weekdays (~.~). He asked for my decision, I can't say yes... so I said "nevermind, forget bout it". All my hopes went down all because of the stupid supervisor (I don't wanna use vulgar words here as it'll ruin my blog). But the bright side was that I am able to chat with Angel a lot lately. Yea i'm not myself lately, i've been waking up at odd hours which is 7~9 a.m everyday (which I don't normally do), just to get to know Angel better and better everyday (T_T). I feel kinda tired, very tired (this is the first person which I spent 100% my time with) other than my friends. Here's a few pic of people whom I can call "Friends"

From left to right (top): Jia hong, Me, Kae Shiuh, Nigel and Jerome
From left to right (bottom): Wei Hong, Phui Thong (Dan) and Yeong Shan
(Don't believe the date from the picture, the camera is screwed up it was taken recently on my trip to genting)

And here:

From left to right (top): Jia Hong, Su Kai Shien (an idiot), and Kok Loong (the other 2 I don't really know well)
From left to right (middle): Yeong Shan, Ru Shen, Kenji, Wei Hong, Tee Yoong, Dexter and Justin
From left to right (bottom): Dan, Pei Chuen (PC), Jason, Mr. Norman, Me!, Faith and Ying Guo

To me the one's who can really be called as friends are, Kae Shiuh, Jia Hong, Yeong Shan, Wei Hong, Tee Yoong, Dan, Pei Chuen, and Faith.

Kae Shiuh: Likes to talk alot but fail to even attempt whatever he says but he's a nice guy alrite ^^
Jia Hong: Kae's best friend, very intelligent and hardworking (and very playful =D)
Yeong Shan: He's alrite, can be annoying at times
Wei Hong: The most dependable friend, he'll help if he can (actually all of the time he can) friendly and kind
Tee Yoong: A happy-go-lucky guy, we always chat bout gals =D
Dan: My closest buddy, and can be VERY annoying at times (currently in love with Mei Teng XD nah juz joking)
Pei Chuen: Like every normal chinese educated friends, shes hardworking, nice, kind, friendly and playful (especially when i'm around her, i'd make jokes which makes her laugh =P)
Faith: A very cute, nice, and a playful person, but shes very evil at times =P, currently studying in Canada

P.s: Faith was my crush =P, and to those who aren't in the pictures, it doesn't meant that yer not my friend, juz that I don't have yer pics :/

Chapter 2.2: The right decision?

I finally got myself a job that i've always wanted to have, that is to be in a kitchen crew of a Japanese restaurant (although it's not an authentic restoran but heck, i can at least learn how to cook =D). Making 4 bugs per hour, working for 8~10 hours a day on weekdays. Well i'll start working tomorrow. But somehow i feel kinda guilty, i couldn't chat much with Angel as we can only chat online, then i decided that i should start calling her, but it seems that i can't start calling her yet as she hasn't gotten her cell-phone yet :/, yea its kinda sad though, but hey i'm trying my very best just to at least chat with her. I've decided to tell my mum to continue my medication towards my ACNE (at first i thought i wouldn't want to meet someone and all, i wanted to leave my ACNE alone as because i think of it as my sins towards people). I decided not to at least dissapoint Angel when she meets me in...... 5 years time? XD. On the other hand, Dan went back to his old self (which is good) and we spend time together with my other friends at Genting Highlands recently (which was REALLY REALLY fun) we did so much things together that we could not while we're with our parents and Nigel helped me out by drawing the picture above (yea the I Luv You Angel with the Angeling from RO picture) I really appreciate what he had done for me ^^. Well i'm glad that almost everything turned out smoothly and great, i hope it can keep going on till next year =D.

P.s: Angel darlin, it doesn't meant that i'm workin, i won't be contactin you.... i proved to you that while my monitor crashed, i went all the way out from my house to an internet cafe just to see you on, well this is basically just to tell you that i'll be thinkin of you before, after, and while i'm sleeping, i hope you can get your cell-phone as soon as possible, then we can contact each other via sms/phone, oh and if yer feeling lonely, just listen to the song i sent ya ;) hope it'll help ^^, will always luv ya ^^