Chapter 2.1: The gamble

I asked Angel bout making this relationship last, she said yes she'll make it last, she wants it to last forever. It's sweet and nice, yet i told her she might find someone else in time as 5 years (minimum) is long enough to find other guys, but she still sticks to her decision and she told me that she won't look for other guys (well something like that XD). I'm kinda happy when i hear that, but actually thats not what I fear most, what I fear most is myself.... i'm afraid that it'll turn out the other way round, as in i'll meet someone else, fear that i'll dissapoint others,fear that she'll be with someone else, fear that I won't be able to keep my words. But i've made up my mind, IF she were to find another guy, as long as shes happy i'm already happy myself, love/like can't be forced as its something very sensitive to most of us and our lives. But till then, this is the gamble that i'm in, no matter how good or bad it turns out, I want her to know that i've vowed, i've vowed that no matter how our relationship turns out, we'll meet..... no matter what happens WE will, i'll do what it takes to do that even if its 5 years later. Till then, i'll be waiting for her...

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Why don't you,
Let me be with you?

Character 1: The soft hearted wolf

Thats me! The guy in blue ^^ all the way to da left, not the one wearing spec's (its my mum)

Name: Daryl Lim Jia Tsen (a.k.a) Wiegraf, Urameshi, Kiddo, Dariee (in japanese)
Age: 16
D.O.B: August 31st 1988
Nationality: Malaysian
Starscope: Virgo
Hobby: Listening to anime s0ngs, creating meaningful quotes, playing online games with friends, watching anime, Collecting Final Fantasy Merchandise and many more XD.
Fav. Food: Most of the food actually XD
Fav. Drink: Coke *burp*
Fav. Song: Let Me Be With You (Round table featuring Nino)
Fav. Band: Linkin Park
Fav. Game: Final Fantasy Series and Ragnarok Online Malaysia
Fav. Quote: "I'll be your crying shoulders if you ever need one, i'll be the one listening to your grieves, i'll be the one sharing your pain, last but not least, i'll be the one to be there whenever you need someone"
"Dakara.....Dakara......Aishiteru..." (And so.... so...... i love you...)
Status: Currently In Love
Hopes: To be able to meet Angel, to be able to master my Japanese language, to be a successful game director (like Square Enix XD), to be able to live happily with my love ones, to live in Japan with Angel and live as long as i could to cherish every moment i'm with her
Currently: In love with Angel, and also finding a way to see her..... (currently waiting)

Note: I'm kinda egoistic whenever i'm with people, but i'm actually very soft myself ^^. I'll give everything up including my ego when/if i were to meet my one and only soul-mate.

P.s: Yea i don't like taking pictures of myself, this was my latest picture that was taken in Australia last summer in December 2003 ^^, neways new characters Biodata will be released later on ^^

Chapter 2: And life goes on....

Lately i've been kinda lonely until i was playing RO, i've met this gal named Angel. We started our relationship off kinda awkward (lolz! by marrying each other in RO). Then later on, we started chatting through MSN and we got closer and closer as days goes by. She live's in Singapore (yea my country's neighbour) and shes 13 (hey when it comes into relationship, age is not a factor). Now she's in a school expedition and shes trying to get a phone to contact me as on the 26th November, i'm gonna start working full-time. For once, i felt very happy with my life, happy that finally i've found someone who doesn't care bout the looks, but what's inside (heck i thought i wouldn't even find). I told her many things that I wanted to tell my crush, and I showed her my picture, but she told me that looks does not matter to her. I've never thought that i would've encountered online relationship but i'm afraid that it might not turn out well, but this time i'm not gonna back down, after all the regrets and all, i'm gonna do my very best to make it last, even if i were to fail, i'll have no regrets.

Well the other is my close buddy daniel, lately after he started work he put working priority higher than friendship. Don't know why but I hate his attitude recently, kinda pissed of with him, always with this excuse "I juz came back from work la, im tired, i wanna sleep". This isn't the first though, he screwed Kae Shiuh up for our upcoming genting trip which is on the 23rd. We've planned this for a year+ yet now he told Kae Shiuh that he's not going for the trip, he'd rather work (you can see his msg's at the tag-board). For me its juz two words to describe this attitude, screwed up. And nah i don't plan to talk to him as he is no longer the Daniel i know and i'm kinda sick and tired of these things. He thinks he's already old enough to be independent saying that he doesn't want to depend on his parents and all (hey we're juz 16! not 20 ~.~) well i'll juz see how far he'll go then.

"It's better to know our limits as if we surpass them, we'll unintentionally hurt others" - A quote from the auther himself

This is quote is specially dedicated to Angel:
In my dreams,
you're an angel from above,
At my very eyes,
You're the one i love
-A quote from the auther himself

Chapter 1.3: Countless memories

Most of us keeps something very important, even though no one understand to why it's so important . The very thing I treasure most is this :

It might look like an ordinary hand drawn picture, but to me its very meaningful. It reminds me countless memories of my past with my crush, we were so close back then. The things we do, the calls we make, our dreams, and more importantly the time i've spend with her ^^. Oh and just in case you didn't know, that picture is her drawing, she gave it to me as she knows i'm a big fan of Aeris Gainsborough (Final Fantasy 7). It's been with me for 2 years now, yet i still treasure it. But i have no intention of throwing it away (not till i die! XD), oh and not to mention shes one hell of an angel when she sings ^^ (i can never forget that voice) and she draws well too ^^. And i used to have this feeling that says, "I wanna hear her voice before, after and while i'm sleeping"

Chapter 1.2: Unforgiven Actions

Well it started last year, ever since i've started to have known this girl named Christina, i've been chatting with her for quite sometime and our relationship as friends has been quite close coz either 1 of us will sms each other if we're bored, until i've heard that she has a crush on me from her friend Jolene. (well im a sensitive person and i take things seriously) Ever since then, i've been trying to avoid her, been rude to her and ignored her sms. (But the truth is, she never had [according to her]) And also a fact that i don't want anyone close to me to fall for me as i'm already stuck to someone (although im not her bf). Well i can say i've been quite bad to her until she send this e-mail to me,

daryl...
i think that this nonsense has to come to an end. i have done everything that is in my power to do. somehow or other, you don't see it. i'm sorry you can't accept it or accept me for who i am. i can't do something that is expected of me if i don't know what it is. And if you are going to act in such an immature manner, then i have to say i'm sorry and i wish i can wallow in your self-pitying state, but i'm not that kind of person. i've tried to befriend you in many ways. you don't appreciate it. it is not my fault.
this is the last straw. this is going to be my last attempt to befriend you. after this, it is your move. should you choose to reply this e-mail, you want to continue what is left of our friendship and let it grow again. if you want to send me an sms, you know my number. I'm leaving it at this. it's your move. the fate of our friendship lies solely in your hands.


chris & jo...... (lolz im still keeping this msg after a year)

And at that time, i replied to her via sms, saying that i think that we should juz act like we don't know each other (well i guess im wrong here). Then right after that sms, her sis (outta nowhere) send me an sms saying that Chris is now crying just becoz of wat i've send to her. After having a lil conversation with her elder sis, i've regretted wat i've replied in the sms. Then later on i tried smsing her from there on, but she didn't reply after wat i did to her.

Well Christina (don't wanna call u Chris as it sounds like a guy rather than a gal) I'm sorry if i've hurt ur feelings back then, i know saying sorry wouldn't do nething, but if you want to hear it from myself, i'll tell you myself. Sorry bout my ego back then, well i guess TIME do change people, but hey IF you're reading it, im saying sorry from the bottom of my heart (plz don't get any wrong ideas)

Chapter 1.1: Regrets

Lately after experiencing working life, i can imagine how my parents work everyday (even though i'm a part-timer, but i can imagine being a full-timer). I've also realized how rude I am to my mum lately. Even though i'm rude to her, she give's me cash whenever i'm going out with my friends even though she is nearly broke. Thinking of my attitude towards her lately makes my so disgusted. Now i'm gonna change myself to lighten her burden and at the same time make her happy although by just being obedient and not to cause troubles (which i hardly cause). And also she could die anytime as i'm typing due to her serious illness... (well i don't know whats the illness is called, but i know that it can kill her anytime and it can't be cured). Well to all readers, appreciate your love ones, don't be like me, regrets are almost part of our life's, but lucky me that my mum is still alive now that i'm regretting.

Friends blog ^^

To all readers, if you're interested in reading another blog, here's Kil's blog http://erickbp.blogspot.com (to those who doesn't know whois kil, u can check out Characters). Although his english is a lil weak, but hey at least u guys can understand ^^", and also u guys can go through my links also to reach to his blog

Chapter 1: Unforgotten memories

I can't believe how time passes you with a blink of an eye, i've quitted my job, met new people at the same time, my school results came out. Well, sad to say i failed almost all of my subjects except English ~.~. During last saturday after the goodbyes to Jane, Jess, June (they treat me like their younger brother at the same time i treat them as my elder sisters during work ^^), Michael, Harris, John (these people are the nicest people in my workplace ^^) and also Eddy (one of the most pervert guy working with me and also the most caring person to me ever since i've started working ^^") i feel happy and at the same time sad. Later on that night, Michael told me that he too gonna quit tomorrow, going to go to Las Vegas working as a casino guy (not too sure wat the job is called). Then a week before, Claire read my blog and she told me that i've wasted my one and only chance (she's reffering to "Prologue"), I told her yea i did blow up big time, but regretting won't do a thing. I told her "heck it doesn't really matter now ^^". But to me, heck i'm not desperate after all, but still it was a happy yet painful memory ^^. After all I did juz to get this ---><--- close to get my crush. This is how it all started 2 years ago, firstly i start to call her like 24/7 (lolz! i was VERY eager back then) or i'll sms then we'll start talking on the phone (at that time I called her even during midnitez). And theres this time, Trisha dared me to confess to her that i like my crush in front of her, i told her i'll do juz that at that same day. On that day itself, i forgotten all about it until midnite on that very nite, she called my phone and Trisha answered it (since i was sleeping like a pig). Then Trisha asked her if she wants to talk to me, then she refused since she knew that i was sleeping (but Trisha woke me up after all). Chatted with her on the phone for 1 hour then i remembered the dare Trisha dared me. I confess in front of my sister while talking to my crush on the phone (I didn't confess juz because its a dare, but its because i really do like her, even if its not a dare sooner or later i'd be telling her myself) <------- was in "like sick" (not love sick XD) at that time. After that day, we were more closer than before. At the end of the year, I felt like i've been disturbing her lately by calling her 24/7, so i decided to stop calling her 24/7 <------- huge mistake a VERY huge mistake. Then ever since I stop calling her 24/7, well this is the result, we rarely talked (we'll only talk if theres anything important to talk about). This is how actually it ended *knocks head on wall* as in not close anymore, not calling each other during midnitez and all. But hey its my own fault not to make that move. Hmph I guess this is it for the first chapter ^^ till then keep reading!

P.S: Hey Marcus, she was the right one but i don't think i'm da right one for her and also its juz that im dumb enough not to make my move. To all readers, if you have any comments please e-mail me at squall_rinoa38@hotmail.com or you can add me through msn, i'm always online ^^

"Sorry guys, but this is my story!" (Adapted from Final Fantasy X)